My loss

[tiffany]

I know I haven't been around much, was having a difficult time trying to settle back into work full time after my back surgery as well as getting back to working out, now things will be even more difficult. My best friend, lover and training partner, life partner, my everything, passed away Tuesday of a massive brain aneurysm. Troy, also know on some forums as Wolvy, Wolvy1 or SelfLife was working with a partner creating a gymwiki and True Protein is holding a raffle to raise funds to help complete the project in Troy's memory. Please see the attached link and if you know that Troy may have been active on other forums, please pass this on.

forums.trueprotein.com/showthread.php?p=33024#post33024

To view the gym wiki

gymwiki.info/en/Index

Troy's and my dream was to one day compete for our first time, somehow I am going to try to find the strength to make our dream come true. He may not be there physically but he will be there in my heart, always.

Cindy

[fit]

Sorry for your loss, Tiffany. Truly.

[CeaAnna Kerr]

Very sorry to hear of your loss.

[beckie]

Tiff,I don't know what to say...I am truly sorry for your loss. Take care xxxxxx

(((HUGS)))

[mrbeefy]

Tiffy,
My sincere condolences.
May you be consoled at the thought that you will be together again some day. Please feel the strength of the bond that you have with this community, and know that we are here for you, and that we love you.
May all the choirs of angels come to meet him,
may the lead him to paradise,
may the love of his arms enfold you,
and may he be granted eternal live.

Tiffy, we are here for you. ANYTHING you need, just ask.
If you would like to talk we're here.

peace to you my sister.

Frank

[vindog]

I am Truely Sorry Friend.

[GerryT]

Cindy, so sorry to hear. My sincere sympathy for your loss. Been through it, and hope that you will know peace of mind and heart some time soon.

We are all here for you,and you will be in my prayers at church this weekend.

[Intensity]

I'm sorry Cindy.

I truly sympathize with you and send you positive thoughts.

[Karrie]

tiffany said:

I know I haven't been around much, was having a difficult time trying to settle back into work full time after my back surgery as well as getting back to working out, now things will be even more difficult. My best friend, lover and training partner, life partner, my everything, passed away Tuesday of a massive brain aneurysm. Troy, also know on some forums as Wolvy, Wolvy1 or SelfLife was working with a partner creating a gymwiki and True Protein is holding a raffle to raise funds to help complete the project in Troy's memory. Please see the attached link and if you know that Troy may have been active on other forums, please pass this on.

forums.trueprotein.com/showthread.php?p=33024#post33024

To view the gym wiki

gymwiki.info/en/Index

Troy's and my dream was to one day compete for our first time, somehow I am going to try to find the strength to make our dream come true. He may not be there physically but he will be there in my heart, always.

Cindy

Thanks for emailing me this yesterday. I have been thinking about you all yesterday and today, if you need me call me or email me!

[sapphire]

So totally sorry Cindy. Troy was a sweet dedicated man who loved you so. I will keep you and your boys in my thoughts and my prayers. Be strong, Troy would want you to be.
XO



I posted this on Eric's site as you requested.

[mrky03]

Sorry to hear about your loss, my condolences.

[Roger]

So sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my prayers

[tiffany]

Thanks to everyone for your kind words and support.

I wish I could say I'm doing fine, but I am not. I keep waiting for him to walk through the door and give me that beautiful smile and a big hug like he'd been away for weeks when he had just gone to the corner store. Part of me wants to keep our dream of competing alive but I can't find the will to go on right now. Please pray for me and help me find strength.

[sapphire]

Cindy

Take one day at time, spend time with your boys and family. You must be strong for your boys! Forget about competing it's not important right now. You will do it when you are ready.
You need to talk about your loss. Please go see a therapist. It is not a sign of weakness to ask for help.
I know your heart is broken, you will always love Troy. He is in your heart always. One day you will be able to think of him and smile, not cry. I PROMISE.

[mrbeefy]

Cindy,

When we have passed the tests we were sent to earth to learn,
we are allowed to graduate.
We are allowed to shed our body, which inprisons our soul the way a cocoon encloses the future butterfly,
and when the time is right we can let go of it.
then we are free of pain, free of fear, and free of worries....free as a beautiful butterfly...returning home,
which is aplace where we are never alone,
where we continue to gorw,
and to sing, and to dance,
where we are with those we love, and where we are surrounded with more love than anyone can imagine.


Cindy, we are all given the gift of someones' life, someone's love to hold and cherish for short while, but a time comes for us all, to return home.
Death is not an end, but a transition, just like the butterfly.
I wish you the peace which is beyond all understanding, to console you, and wipe the tears from your eyes.
Know that Troy is always in perpetual light,
and that that light will shine forver in your heart.

We are here for you always.

Frank

[beckie]

Take one day or one hour at a time girl and lean on your friends and family as much as you can. Don't be afraid to ask for help..I wish I could do something for you. If you can email me your address(or one of the other ladies can) I would like to send you a more personal message.

xxx

[Rich]

Cindy. I am so sorry. I would like for you to know that though I am a total stranger I cried for your loss when I read about it. Please make sure not to keep the pain inside. Please promise that you'll talk to someone, or go to a support group. Promise that you will be strong for your boys, so that they don't have to bottle in their pain. Life is cruel this way, but though death can snatch our loved ones, it can not snatch our love. Sapph is right - you will smile when you think of him.

[Hoopie]

WOW! I'm SO sorry to hear this! Best wishes to you and yours!

[tiffany]

Thank you to everyone for your kind words and support. It has been a tough week but I want to share with you a post I made on TrueProtein



It's been one week since he took his last breath,
I'm so confused, why did he have to go?
He's my life, I love him so.
When I'm feeling weak I want to lie down and be with him
then I remember all of his dreams and try to find the strength to make them so.
I can only pray that he finds his way to hold my hand along this difficult path.
He's my life, I love him so.



I haven't had the strength to do my workouts this week, partially due to my lack of appetite and partially to my feelings of being lost without Troy by my side. The guys at TP are helping me figure out my protein mixes and Troy had set up a new work out program for me just before he passed away. The only difficulty I will have with it is not having him there as my spotter. Once I get back into a routine, I will start my journal back up, and yes, I will post some pics, as much as I know I will hate them but not only will they help to keep me motivated they well also leave me open to suggestions or advise that you may be able to offer me.

For now, it is off to bed as I still have a lot to take care of tomorrow.

Tiff

[mrbeefy]

Tiffy,

We pray for you and your family through these difficult times. Like Rich said, we are strangers, but we are family. ANYTHING you need, we are here.

Happy to see that your looking to your workouts and things. One day at a time. Do what YOU need to do because everyones grieving process is different, and NO ONE can tell you how to do that.

Do rest when you can and take care of yourself. The boys need you....and so do we.