Tiffany's Surgery

[mrbeefy]

Tiffy!

It's ok girl....ya gotta vent...and this is as good as place as any.
Here...you can be brutally honest...which is a good thing!

Sorry to hear that your Mom's didn't work out. I can imagine she was getting on your nerves a bit huh? Or was that an understatement?
Drivng...hmmmm...be careful.....but ya gotta do..what ya gotta do.
You were lucky. What if some young inexperienced driver accidently rear-ended you? BE CAREFUL.
BF...hmmm....I'm probably the wrong guy to help you with that one.....on the other hand.....I could be the best guy to help you with that one! ;D ( oops...I didn't say that!!!) Just trying to make you smile ! LOL!

You knew this was going to be tough...and you did it for all the right reasons. So now...ya just gotta get through it...and it WLL get better. Perhaps not right now..or tommorrow...but IT WILL. Trust me

Take a look at some of the pics you posted for us before your surgery. Girl...you are HOT! ......and besides a little time off, nothing else has changed, EXCEPT that your back WILL be better now!!! This is just what you were expecting, with a few small speed bumps along the way. Nothing you can't handle girl!

If you don't mind, I'll send you a brief PM too.

NOW....hang tough! You are a woman of the 21st Century. A strong, beautiful dedicate woman. A Mom! Damn...ain't no one stronget that that!!!! So you CAN do it!!!

Keep in touch.....I'll be watching you

Frank

[Karrie]

tiffany said:

mrbeefy said:

So....been a few days...how ya feeling?

I wish I could say great, but it has been a bad week. Back is doing ok but mentally, I don't know how much more I can take. Because I am not able to do much, it was arranged that I would stay at my mom's for 2-3 weeks. I knew it would be ruff, I can tolerate her in small amounts but I knew I would need help so I agreed - BIG MISTAKE. The other day I was pretty much at my breaking point and while my mom and step-dad were out I grab my keys and came home. I know it was a stupid thing to do (I'm not supposed to drive for 4 weeks) but it was better than the other option that was popping into my head. Needless to say, everyone is angry with me, they came to try to get me to go back but I refused so they left but took my car so I wouldn't be tempted to drive again. Even the bf isn't taking to me and I'm not sure if I messed up for good, I took all my frustration out on him which wasn't fair. I know he did as much as he could for me (he was planning to take time off in April when I was supposed to have the surgery, but with the date being moved up he was in the middle of a trim down with his training and in the middle of some complicated computer programing) but I needed him more and got angry when he couldn't come and rescue me from my mom's place.

Since coming home, I am doing a bit better. At least I can eat what I want and when I want and get back into some kind of routine but I am still very depressed, bored and upset. I am going to try to focus on studying for my PT certificate to keep me busy.

Sorry for being so down but I just find it so hard to sit around and do nothing.

I sent you an e-mail!!!

[tiffany]

Sapphire, Frank, Karrie and to all of you who sent me an email or PM, thanks so much. No one judged me for feeling down and everyone has offered words to help cheer me up. I know the next few months, waiting for the bones to fuse will be tough and I just have to try to take one day at a time keeping in mind that I will be back and better than ever

THANKS

[sapphire]

OF COURSE we wouldn't judge you!! You are going through a tough time and we can all understand how you must feel! Vent all you want, I can take it. Wide shoulders ya know??

[tiffany]

sapphire said:

OF COURSE we wouldn't judge you!! You are going through a tough time and we can all understand how you must feel! Vent all you want, I can take it. Wide shoulders ya know??

Even being Miss Grumpy Pants with your low carbs you are still there for me, gotta lova ya

[beckie]

Sending you some (((BIG HUGS))) Tiff! remember,you only have to do this one hour and one day at a time. Set yourself some short term goals(like the study) to keep yourself sane and vent when you need to
xxx