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Post by Massiv on May 24, 2006 20:41:55 GMT -5
As many of you know that I am new to this board and feel I have found a good place to be. Also many of you know that I am currently 45 days out from the biggest contest of my life and we are heading in all the right directions. I found out a few hours ago that my father passed away early this a.m. He had been sick and in the hospital for about 3 months. He was in an intensive care unit in Denver for the past month. When I went to the Shawn Ray Classic last weekend, I was able to go and see him. He was able to talk to me for the first time in 3 month. I told him that I loved him and everything was going good. We had a really good visit. The last thing he told me before I left is "win". He was always my biggest fan. When I was competiting as a teenager, he was the one that would prepare my food for me. He would drive me to my contest. He was always there for me. This really hurts brothers. I found out on the way to the gym. So I sucked it up and did my workout, choking back tears several times, because I knew that is what he would have wanted. I lost my mom in 1997 to cancer, so that left me with just him and now he is gone. What a crappy feeling. I guess now this adds to the drive to win this damn thing. This one is for him. I will put everything I have into this, come hell or high water, we will bring it back for him.
Sorry guys, but I needed to talk to people that understand where I am at and may have experienced similar things.
Sorry to vent, but this is hard and trying to stay focused. Any words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated.
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Post by OptimumJoe on May 24, 2006 20:47:01 GMT -5
WOW  That's a lot to take in. Bro, I hope you realize that you can come here and vent anytime. It seems to help me when I talk/type/write my feelings and difficulties down so have at. We're here for you bro and my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Joe |
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Post by youngblood on May 24, 2006 21:10:20 GMT -5
Very sorry to hear of this massiv. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me.  |
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Post by Hoopie on May 24, 2006 21:11:28 GMT -5
Dude i am SORRY to hear about your lose! They can/are devestating when they hit home. you and your family will be in mythoughts and prayers! Like row said vent all you want.....
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Post by Tim Wescott on May 24, 2006 21:25:22 GMT -5
Very sad to hear this.........my sincerest condolences brother.
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Post by beckie on May 24, 2006 22:42:30 GMT -5
I am so sorry to hear this massiv,my thoughts are with you and your family.
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TaPo31
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Post by TaPo31 on May 24, 2006 23:48:12 GMT -5
I am very sorry about your father, just goes to show that there are bigger things in life than exercise. That being said, go out and bring this trophy home for him.
T
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Post by chris on May 25, 2006 3:21:50 GMT -5
Im sorry for your loss massiv. He was obviously a great influence to you and a loving father.
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Post by TNA on May 25, 2006 6:02:13 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss Massiv. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
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musclegrl
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Post by musclegrl on May 25, 2006 6:59:31 GMT -5
"The last thing he told me before I left is "win". He was always my biggest fan."
I don't visit this site too often but I must say you have been given so much love by this man This love lies at your core and it will always give you strength. ... so go out and win!
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naturalguy
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Post by naturalguy on May 25, 2006 7:21:16 GMT -5
Sorry to hear it brother.
This may be crazy to say but focus on your training, it can take your mind off of things for a little while.
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Post by Massiv on May 25, 2006 7:29:39 GMT -5
Sincerely thank you. Your replies meant alot. This one is hard. Choking back tears right now. I am so glad that Tim brought me to this board. You guys and gals are great. I mean that. Thank you for being here for me. I will be back. Lots to do.
Sincerely,
Massiv
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Post by RUBICON19 on May 25, 2006 7:49:14 GMT -5
Oh my!! I am sooooo sorry to hear this, massiv. If he was ill, he will be at peace now. Be strong man. You will be in our thoughts and prayers. Anything you need, just ask. shoot me a PM any time.
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Post by GerryT on May 25, 2006 8:45:31 GMT -5
I've been through this as well and have participated in support groups to help others cope. I used to counsel, so if you need to talk just get in touch.
So sorry to hear and just getting on stage in his memory will be a huge victory no matter the outcome. Sincere sympathy and God bless you and your family at this terribly difficult time.
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Post by Intensity on May 25, 2006 8:57:06 GMT -5
Sorry to hear that Massiv. Sincerely, my best wishes and positive thinking are going toward you.
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Post by Massiv on May 25, 2006 9:39:37 GMT -5
You guys are great. Thank you. I am sure I will be on here frequently venting. bear with me. It is my only release at this point.
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Post by Karrie on May 25, 2006 10:41:44 GMT -5
My thoughts are with you as well. We are all here for you.
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Post by RUBICON19 on May 25, 2006 11:15:19 GMT -5
VENT AWAY!!!
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Post by Massiv on May 25, 2006 11:48:11 GMT -5
damn bro. I am at work. I know, why? you ask. I would go stir crazy if I was not doing something. I am a manager and boy have I been on a rampage today. My brain hurts. I feel extremely sad and at the same time aggressive. Chewing peoples butts, then I feel like just setting down and crying my eyes out, because all I can think about is what my dad looked like the last time I seen him. Holy sh*t, f*ck, da*n. OK, I vented for teh moment. I am sure I will be back shortly.
You guys and gals are truly a class act. thank you.
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Post by GerryT on May 25, 2006 11:57:51 GMT -5
You're not alone. I did the same thing, but it actually did not help in the long run. It follows you, and you don't escape it. Check your e mail, and we can talk if you want. Know what a terribl time this is.
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